I have to admit I am writing this with tears in my eyes. We can't come home yet. :( My heart aches. Ok here is my little pity party for myself...I am tired, I miss my husband and my Aidan. Yes dare I say it...I miss Ohio. Ok I am done feeling sorry for myself.
We were able to see Dr.B this afternoon. He amazingly got Brooke to sit perfectly still while inserting a large needle into her head and pulling out the pocket of blood. She did not even cry and was on no pain meds. I am telling you, she loves this doctor! But as he was wrapping her head, I said, "You are not taking out the staples." And he said, "Oh no not today." Ugh! He wants them to stay in until Monday. He put Brooke on an antibiotic to ward off infection. So with that news, we must stay in NY. I am thankful that he is such a good doctor and can be honest with me. And I feel blessed that we can stay at the RM House, and that I have my mom here to support me.
Please if you can, a few prayer requests. 1. For Aidan. He is homesick and he broke down on the phone talking to me tonight. It just breaks my heart and I want to hold him! I know he is in wonderful and capable hands, just missing him! 2. For Tim. He is missing us and us him! 3. My work. I am feeling like I am not being efficent enough. And I am not there to do what I need to do. Just hate letting people down. 4. For my mom, dad, sis, and bro. My mom has been gone as long as me. I know they are missing her a home too. 4. And of Course Brooke! That she keeps healing and that Monday will be a good day all around! Of course still praying for His will not ours.
Love to all!
A blog dedicated to my daughter Brooke who has Chiari I Malformation
Melinda,
ReplyDeleteAlthough I have not yet commented on your blog, I have been checking it and reading it obsessively! I've also been praying for you, Brooke, your mom, and your family a bit obsessively. I cried big old tears as I read your post tonight! Dave looked at me like I was a bit odd, until he saw what I was reading that is. My heart aches for Brooke and I think you are a strong, amazing woman and mother for being strong for her.
I know I can't speak for people, but PLEASE know that you are NOT letting anyone down! You are exactly where you need to be. I can't imagine how hard it is for you to be away from Aiden and your hubby and home, I'm praying that God will sweep you up and carry you through this.
I will be praying specifically for everyone on your list!
Sending Hugs!
Beth
Thanks Beth! Now i am crying big old tears! Love you guys! You are such an awesome fam!!!!
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ReplyDeleteYou, Brooke, and your entire family have been in my prayers. The saying in our family right now is "do the best with what you have where you are." God is still in control.
And, no, you are not letting people down. There are enough people around to help do what needs to be done . . . and if not, it will still be there the next day! You are loved! Hang in there and give a squeeze to Brooke for me :)
Love, Miss Terrie
Melinda, I was just hoping and praying you were coming home. Trusting in God's perfect plan for you and Brooke and all involved. Do you need anything? Do Tim and Aidan need a meal? Know you are constantly on my heart. I feel so close to you during this time. He has written all your days. Rest in this tonight! LOVE. PEACE. Monica www.teamdanica.com
ReplyDeleteWe are continually praying! You are not letting anyone at work down! You are where you are supposed to be right now! We love you and we miss you, however, we on the Family Ministry team are here to help you and do what we need to do while you are gone! So only be concerned about your family right now! We will fill in while you are gone. That is not a problem at all! Mel
ReplyDeleteMelinda,
ReplyDeleteI have been praying and will continue to do so. If only you knew how much I admired you as a mom and a woman of God. You are an amazing woman. Hang in there. God is in control. Prayers for everyone on your list.
Jenn Brownell
Even though this was almost 7 months ago I could totally feel & understand your pain. *tear I am amazed at how similar our stories & girls are.
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